Body before Fertility drugs..

The day I found out I was pregnant I immediately starting worrying about weight gain. Anyone who remembers what happened when I was pregnant with Cheyanne will know why! However I got pretty lucky with Wyatt. I gained the normal amount needed. I didn’t stress too much throughout my pregnancy after that initial “holy shit you better not get 200lbs again” thought. I weighed around 125-130 before we started our IVF Jouney. I was warned about the weight gain throughout IVF. I gained about 10-15lbs. The day I found out I was pregnant I weighed 138lbs. It had fluctuated between 135-145 pretty much throughout the whole process. I weighed 176lbs the day I went in to have Wyatt. I got to 145lbs almost within weeks. So I had gotten back down to pretty much prebaby weight but definitely not prefertility drug weight! I told myself the day I come home that I was not going to beat myself up over it, nor was I going to jump on some crazy diet and workout routine. I still feel this way. I am going to eat healthy and workout daily. If some days I don’t, then it is what it is. I will enjoy my newfound 15lbs and enjoy my new life along the way. Will I lose it? Hell yea. Will it take me more than a couple months? Of course. I know being 35 and this being my second cesarean that isn’t going to be a cake walk. I have carried around a “c-section tummy” for 16 years, I hate it but I knew there was no point in getting a tummy tuck until after I was done having babies. We aren’t done so that will continue to be postponed. 🙂 I have changed how I eat and have joined Kick Boxing! I LOVE LOVE LOVE IT! I go three days a week and will workout at home the other days. I have truly enjoyed getting back out and sweating. I may look like a total dork trying to do frog crawls nor can I do a proper push up, but I don’t care. This is MY Journey. I laugh at myself and I’m sure they laugh at me. Oh well. LOL. You guys should have seen me at my first and LAST Cycle class. Now that was hilarious. I hated it. I will never go back. My butt still hurts and I did it on Tuesday. Props to all you guys that love it. I will stick to my Cross Ramp for cardio.

So I will end with this. Do not let society make you think that you have to be like the abnormal Moms out there who get their body back within days without a single stretch mark. Those Moms are weird. They aren’t normal. 🙂 Just kidding, they aren’t weird but they are definitely not normal. Be happy with your new found body and embrace it. We got a new tiny human to worry about. We have a new life to adjust to. Once that is done, then focus on getting your body back at your own pace. Not what everyone else thinks the pace should be.



Me time. Do you get enough?


I read this blog post today, you are worth finding yourself and let me start by saying this..It is so true!  In today’s society we constantly feel like we have to defend ourselves for being the Mom we are. Why? Why do we immediately feel we have to say “I love my kids or I love being a Mom” before we start saying stuff like “I need more me time” or hell, you may just need me time period! You want just one evening a week to go workout or tan. Working is NOT me time. Taking a dump is NOT me time. To be honest i don’t feel a bubble bath while listening to your toddlers scream wanting in the bathroom me time either. I don’t feel that anything you have to do is Me time. Time for yourself is something you want to do, go read a book at a park. Go to the gym. Go tan. Join a church group. Something! My goal in 2017 is to learn to juggle my new life with a newborn and Me time.

Our daughter will be 17 next month and we now have an 8 week old little boy that we have waited years to finally have! However the age gap between the two basically has made it like it is all new, I feel like I have truly started back over. Honestly, I have had to Google shit about babies! Yes, you read that right. I had no idea how far they could see, when they should be holding their up, at what month he would start smiling and cooing. But in 8 weeks I can count on my fingers how many times I have gotten dressed, put on makeup, and left the house! Anyone who knows me, knows how incredibly insane this makes me. Bat shit crazy may be a better term. I have been able to do what I want when I wanted for many many years now so this is an adjustment. A great one!  But a HUGE one. Now here is where I feel society would say “Should’ve thought about all this before having another one”. Screw you society. Like everyone in this damn world hasn’t had to adjust to new things in their life. Don’t judge me for demanding 30 mins to an hour every other day to myself. I love having the luxury of not having to go back to work work full time, we made the choice that I would only work 3 days a week.  But just cause I do not work a full time job doesn’t mean I am not entitled to enjoy time for myself. I am a damn good Mommy, Wife, and Business Chic full time 24/7 and I am proud to say that I need Me time! If we do not get it then it creates unhappiness, frustration, animosity, etc.. With that we can’t be the best mom, wife, friend, or worker. So I have put a plan in place that I am sure will have to be adjusted along the way but it’s a start. I will start to do the things I feel I want most right now! I can’t and won’t allow myself to stay in this rut I have been in for several months!

Here is to an amazing start to 2017! I hope it will be half as good as 2016 was to us 🙂